1. I did not know these were possible until I saw them

  3. Malado and I watching the sunset and waking up and getting lost

  4. “The unconscious is very much akin to what, in other frameworks, I call wilderness. And it’s very much like the wilderness in it that its beasts are not within our control. It resists the forms, the limits, the restraint, that civilization itself imposes. I’ve always felt, even as a child, that there was the decorum of social structure, the family structure, and so forth, and then there was the wild permissiveness of the inner life.

    I learned I could go anywhere in my inner life.”

    Stanley Kunitz

  7. * more beyond *

  8. " picture it, every day, then let it go to the universe— "

    (Malado Baldwin's studio)

  9. * mountains always on my mind *

    So here are my deliberations: 1.) Work tail off for 3/4 weeks, leave around middle/end of June and work my way out west to hike on the PCT and splore. Thoughts: ride share? Kiss up to someone with a car? I’m dying to see canyons and wiiiide open spaces and sleep in a star-lit desert and hike in the Sierra Nevadas. Then I’d come back around mid-August to move into DC, work some more, etc.

    2.) Try to finagle a job where I could do something low-key in a beautiful beautiful place (I applied to tons of places in the Northern Cascades) and have plenty of time to sink into a really yummy reading list, do free online courses through MIT and Johns Hopkins, write, hike, draw, make $, etc. This would be ideal but unlikely unless I call back and tell some places I could stay through the fall.

    What happens happens, I’m content either way I guess !


  10. arainythursday asked: Does the henna on your hand mean anything?

    I wrote “be” on my left hand and “here” on my right hand. It reminded me to stay present.

  11. (now the ears of my ears awake and

    now the eyes of my eyes are opened) — e. e. cummings

  12. cataloging all my little trips on this here blog, no one reads it but that’s okay, I have decided to become a little more proactive about putting it into the world. 

  13. Discovered a greenhouse wonderland in the desert. If you live anywhere near Palm Springs, go to Cactus Mart.

  14. purple cactuses and yurts

    and thousand year old hippie men in robes

    SoCal is a strange & beautiful place

  15. I escaped to the desert for one of the strangest and most beautiful weeks I’ve ever had. Met all kinds of odd characters in unexpected places. Everything is illuminated with possibility and levity and all that’s left to do is curl up and sleep and have strange dreams to make sense of it